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You.
Thursday, February 4, 2010 9:09 PM  May you be happy with what you've got now. Thanks for the sweetest nightmare you've once given me. And now that you're happy, i shall keep on to my words and not bother you anymore. Friends forever we'll be. </3 Everything is making me more complicated now and then. Do i have to keep on tearing and thinking of everything over and over again? Why am i still hooked onto the past whereas i should have already moved on like how you already are now? After one, there's always another. I don't know who to trust and which is true. But somehow, she has her points that i agreed with. It all came out to be much more unexpected and extremely saddening for me. Why? Why do you keep tossing things up and down? Why are you making things so complicated? I don't really know who to trust, i really don't. But after hearing all confessions, it all gotten me more paranoid and upset. Why was it all? What was your point? Who did you actually tried to get to? Who were you really being sincere towards to? Who did you actually gave it all to at that period of time? You got me thinking way deep harder now. Why am i being clinged onto this kind of situation, with you? Were you really sincere towards me all sincewhile? Were you really being honest with me of what you felt towards her before? Why didn't you just tell me the whole thing? I would understand it all before, but not now. And it's true, true that you've found somebody new to your new life now. Congratulations alright? So sincewhile, you were pretending that you've got no one? Was i supposed to believe you? Why am i being rather doubtful towards you now? You've given me an impression that all boys are the same. I'd thought you were different, the most amazing one. I was holding my hopes really well on your words. But what happened now? What has everything turned to now? You really wanted me to forget you? Be it then, i will try my very best to take all the risks. I will never ever show you my weakness because you already made me one in trying to get over you. It was all really tough, you wouldn't understand though. You've now moved on and you're leaving me crying on my knees. It was you. It was you who once made everything so wonderful and beautiful. It was you who once gave me hopes to keep on living my life without fear. It was you who made a big difference in my life. It was still the same you that broke my heart into bits? It was still the same you that destroy all dreams and hopes? It was still the same you that leave me hanging in dilemma without guidance? You changed it all. Why must it be you? Why is that now i've to lose the same old you that have been taking care of me and showering me love and guidance sincewhile? Why are you trapping me? Why did you let me fall alone now? You've left me alone now. Sometimes i just wonder, what was it that's lacking in me? What was it that wasn't right in your eyes? What was my mistakes? I just don't understand why you had to leave before. You could have just confessed it all and everything single thing out to me. You don't have to leave me wondering day by day till the very day now. I know i have to move on. I have to learn to be independent. I just have to live with everything without your presence in my life ever. I'll just have to be like you. Right? I'll just find hell someone and move on with my fucking life to get a fucking better future. You'll just not understand what i felt. You made me like this, you were the cause of everything that i became like this. Why? You could see me smiling and living a happy life indeed? Hell, fuck with all those that cause' im just living in shit. Among the many, why could it just have been you? Farewell, someone.
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