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Tears.
Wednesday, February 24, 2010 7:36 PM  The best kind of friend is the one you could sit on a porch with, never saying a word, and walk away feeling like that was the best conversation you've had. Awkward and torn. Words that could describe our friendship presently. We used to be like a bunch of awesome sisters that got hooked together really well but now strangers indeed. We used to laugh and cry together but now we're rarely seen together. Remember during secondary one that we all had to go for detentions for some stupid actions we got up to? It was like as though we're all a whole. A complete whole. Remember those nerdy times we celebrated hari raya together in 2007? Cheerleading, remember? Those moments when one wanted to join and then the rest too? There were just too many wonderful times with you girls. We were all bonded really well despite all hatred and enemies we had to face last time. We were just too strong together that we were able to overcome it all and put aside all shits cause we believed that we're one great clique that will always be there for one another in either thicks or thins. Remember it all girls? I don't know if you girls still do, but to what i notice and also some others out there, we're just being split up into two clans now. Why so? What is it that's lacking in this friendship? Trust? Honesty? Care and concern? Time? What is it? What's breaking this friendship? I don't know if you girls still care about this friendship or not, but i still do. Observing how things are breaking apart bring me to tears and heartaches. Am i in the wrong somehow too? If i do, speak out please. Yes, im going with the flow of this friendship as im already speechless in all that's happening. I know that nothing could work things out either. I've got that strong instincts, but girls, can i prove it wrong? Can i? If we're not meant to be good friends, then i'll accept it what i deserve. Sometimes when i think back,i just don't deserve to be in the clique of you, four girls. I felt that im just an odd person that do not deserve to be standing there with you girls. I would wnat to try in figuring out to how to resolve everything. Thus, neither of you girls seemed concerned, so might as well i'll just shut things up within myself and move on with the flow of this friendship that i really can't endure anymore. It's all broken into bits, lil bits that would not just be easily glued up back again. Memories of each of you will alwyas remain in me even when we have to not to be together anymore. All the bad and soggy times we had, we managed to hold on. Not anymore now and not any sooner later. I'll just leave everything to fate and let's just make Him decide. Awesomest girls, i apologised for all misdeeds, heartaches or perhaps unfairness that i might have caused towards all of you. Those bad times i had to face, thanks girls for your presence when im in need. Thanks for the listening ears and opinions given out when i need advices. And for the good and memorable times we used to have it all, i thank you girls too for making my life a better one. Without you girls, my world would be rather shallow and soggy. You've all been a part of my life that took up every bits of my heart and writing all of these just concerns me alot. I feel that no one's gonna hear me out anymore like before, so might as well i pour all feels out here. Thanks for all treats and everything, girls. I love all of you so much, i really still do. I just miss everything about us. Everything. </3 Nur Khaliesah: I miss you so much, love. I miss those times when you were always there when im at my worst nightmares. You used to always be there when i need someone to talk to on the phone, someone to text to, someone to hug me when i was crying and someone that will always say, "I love you bbysister. You're one strong bitch. I will always be there if you need someone. You can always count on me okay?" I miss it all. You gave me enough concern and love, any sister would give to their younger ones. You threw me the biggest trust that i learn not to break it till the very now. Do you remember the times we cried together, thinking of how cruel life can be? Honestly, you were the first to cry with me when i was at my lowest. We shared everything together. Thinking it all back, it teared me apart. Everything changed now. You were not like before, that usually will text me everyday, asking me how i am and all. And we are just not like any before. No more us now. I don't blame you alright. I just hope that you'll live your life to the fullest and take good care of yourself okay? And of course, last long with Maman, the amazing one that changed your life. I love you, Kalysa. ♥ Shaqinah: You've changed for the better, dear. I could see that, even the rest i should say. Thanks for the listening ears in class whenever i was really upset, happy or either sad. As to what i've told you, you're the one that i really cliqued well with. You'll always asked why, but you'll never understand how i feel, love. You seemed rather awkward with me just now after recess. Why is it so? Sighs. I noticed everything, everyone. But i'll keep it all to myself so that it won't bug anyone. Remeber how we got close last time? And you were the first one that brought me to Bugis Street and shop. You got me hooked to it infact till we've been going there for the ske of buying tops. How funny we were last time. You know i miss the three of us. And i miss you too. But i'd hope that relationships between us will still go great. Syg, don't ever let anyone take advantage of you anymore okay? Stand strong with pride on your own feet that you don't have to depend on any jerks out there that'll just hurt you much enough. Take good care of yourself and don't get too drifted away with such stuffs that you shouldn't be playing with alright? Well wishes for Qinapiz and hopefully this will be the last. I love you, Qinah. ♥ Siti Zulaiha: You know how i really feel right now, girlf. You have been a great friend for the past four years and i hope that it'll still be counting. We'll try in taking good care of this friendship okay? You and i, we're in the same boat. You know how i feel and i do about yours too. We shall keep on trying hard and never give up alright? We have to make our parents proud and happy. Of all the years, we've been thourgh the different kind of situations that caught us into big misunderstandings. Syg, you take good care of your health okay? And don't let anything bring you down. Thanks for all the times spent together and the advices given when i was feeling rather lonely and down. Last long with Naufal, the one that loves you dearly. Your monthsary's coming, so better be prepared. I love you, Laila. ♥ Syarifah Fadzira: Girlf, i don't really know how you're doing now. We aint anymore like before, like how you used to be my lil sister and will always get cheeky and then smack me. Remember how you used to do that on me? You seldom talks to me now and i don't know why. I guess its due to the different atmosphere now. I guess you're more comfortable with them three. It's great knowing that you can last this long with boyf, to compared like before. I wanna thank you for treats and favours i had from you. I owe you, dear. I miss you so much infact. Those times in class we were talking about Voguelicious and then mentioned about how hot Isaac is supposingly. Talk to me when you feels like to, okay? In hoping that your relationship with Salihin this time will grew stronger than the previous ones alright. I hope that you'll improve in your studies and prove to others that you can be better. Also not forgetting, your art works are all fantastic. Keep working on it then. I love you, Fah. ♥ Nurul Eryanna: Your clumsiness and your bitch-talks are still the same. But something within you changed too. At school, in class, you gave me an impression that you don't give me trust. We've had uncountable misunderstandings before. Im sure we're all matured now to think what's the best for us. Everything has a choice to it. So, i aint against any. It's your life you're gonna live and im no one to stop. Your craziness will just make us laughing our asses out. All i can say is, hook all the boys and get your single life to an end soon. Thanks for all helps and favours when im in need. It's all much appreciated. You just seemed not the old you. The Nurul that i used to know. May you live your life happily with the ones you cherish. I love you, Nurul. ♥ Nurul Asyiqin: You've became part of the clan now and im sure you noticed the big changes. You're a great listening ears yet annoying sometimes. Thanks for the advices that you've given me sincewhile. We just got close and i hope to know you better in the later days. In whatever, don't always put on high hopes okay? Cause high hopes will always drag you down to the lowest and that's when you realise that sometimes hopes are much hurting enough. Well, last long with your beloved, Sepet. And i hope our friendship will go on great lines. I love you, Iqin. ♥ Nur Azifah: Girlf, i don't know where you've went missing. I want to note down that i miss you alot, babe. Those thigns we used to do together before, it was all memorable enough. Those days when you used to come down to my crib and chatted about thousands of things we had to exchange. Im sure you're facing probelsm here and there still, especially at home. Stay strong and obey your mom okay dear? Refrain from going against her like how you did last time. It's good to hear that things are slightly better for you now. Im relieved. And i miss your Aunt. She's very nice indeed. With Hazwan now, i'd hope that he'll be the true guy that you've been searching for sincewhile. Last long and may he brings you happiness. Meet real soon okay? I love you, Zie. ♥
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