Pretense.
Thursday, November 26, 2009 11:22 AM Life is full of pretense. Sometimes, you just have to pretend if you want things to go the best way right ? Happiness is the outmost you got to sacrifice to see others happy too. The skies seemed grey, the days seemed colourless. Life is full of sorrows, full of memories. But still, we've got to move on no matter how hard it takes us. She've been thinking and asking herself alot lately. But still, she had found no answer yet. It's crying, it's moaning in pain. Guidance is what she seemed to have lost. She loses herself now. She felt that she've lost her most everything in her life. She knows she have to be strong and still smile. Indeed, behind those smiles and laughters lies her inner screams of pretending and her most excruciating pain she've ever felt. Counting the stars will never end, but when will these all end ? It's getting colder, it's getting lonelier. Pretending is all she could ever do now. It's hard for her to accept the fact still but she knows she'll try her best when she even knows that it hurts alot deep down. Knowing that you're happy will make her happy too. She knows that your life is still full of problems and shits. But hang in there okay cause' she believed you're really strong. Don't ever give up okay ? She's glad to know that you're somehow feeling relieved now. You made it all so wonderful before, but then you had to leave. You had to, she knows. She'd thought you'd still do, but she've guessed it wrongly. Eventhough you said you were fine, she still had doubts. Cause' her instincts whispered that you're still living within dark shadows that are haunting you day and night. She knows you're in need of someone, she would be glad to. But do you allow her to be ? You left her without a word to say now. She's still holding on tight to the memories of you, cause' that's the only treasure that she'e left with. She could only dream and hope. But somehow, she realised that she's sorry that she held her hopes too high. All her dreams that she wanted to share and spend with you is not yet answered. It's all hopeless now, it's all crashed down the drain. Remember those times you had plans with her and she did too ? It all ended way too soon. She could only wish, in hoping that you could know what she feels. Is she still strong, for herself and for you too ?
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