Empty Frames.

Outings.

2010-09-18T12:35:00.001+08:00

{Busy with Raya}

.♥♥♥.

Kind of lazy to update bloggy nowadays since im getting busier.

But i'll try my very best to keep it updated.

So, don't run away readers!

With Much Love,

Ayyshah.

Lebaran.

2010-09-15T20:24:00.002+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri.

Maaf Zahir & Batin.

*Busybusybusy*

.♥♥♥.

Away.

2010-08-29T00:22:00.002+08:00

Earthlings! Awwwww, i miss blogging. :( Things have been happening so much around and it's revolving again and again. Nowadays, it seemed so hard to trust a friend huh? Even, when you've been friend for some years, it seemed that you don't even think how would she feel if she gets to know the truth herself through other people? You seemed as pure as perfect on the outside, yet very evil on the inside. She don't even know why you're doing it to her so. If she herself have done something wrong, talk to her, indeed face to face. Personally would be better than rather choosing to pass it around. Is that what you call a friend? She realised that she've also made mistakes perhaps. But on this case, you treated her like as if she's really petty enough to even eat up on your own property. Why would she do so even if shes desperate? Its just so sad and disappointing to know that, isn't it? Put your yourself in her shoes and tell her how. So, please don't tryna act as though you've thought she'll just keep quiet and bush around. What more, don't act as though that you're innocent alright? She don't wanna be a cyber-hater that will always tend to bush around with blogging or whatsoever. Ain't happy? Go to her straight and confront her. Its better that way isn't it? Sighs. Im having doubts if that is what you call friends. Friends do things together, standing hand in hand through whatever. When things go wrong, another party will always be blamed and as though she herself is so perfect that she cant even spot her own disabilities. She is so hating that revolving life story and is hoping to move on and not putting on any high hopes anymore. She's tired and let only fate decides everything. Just so you know, she's really disappointed and still not satisfied yet. You know who you are, think harder okay? :')

Lately, have been spending time with awesome boy-friends. They're as awesome as ever! And that is what you call friends. All for one, one for all. Seeing those times those boys were in trouble, they stood up together just to protect each and everyone. That touches my heart as i was really hoping to have a great bonded friendship just like them too. Pipit, Taufiq, Eman, Erul, Nabil, Naufal, Ajaq, Aciik, Fared and many more. They're all well-bonded with just one year of friendship. Just one year. I'd thought that our meetup would only end at the point of time we went to Bazaar Geylang together. Infact, i was wrong, we were wrong. It's going stronger each day we meet up. I don't know why but i'll just keep smiling and laughing when im with them, especially when Pipit said "Sha, why'd you kept laughing and smiling? You're as though a person without any sad life, without any problems." Even he noticed that i was happy. Being with them was just as though im keeping my life alive and moving on with great memories. I hope our friendship will grow stronger each day and also getting to know each other better inside out. Peaceful and at ease, that's my wish when being with my friends. {Boyfriends ; ♥♥♥♥♥}

Btw Pit, viewed your singing cover for your first cover last year. It was awesome, *claphands*

Keep going on brother. And Aciik, i love your songs! And most especially, your latest duet song. Korangs sing bestbestbest!

Geylang Dayout.

2010-08-21T15:15:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was awesomezxzx.

Went Geylang with Iqinbby, Lailabby, Naufy & clan.

It was all yet impromptu at the very last minute, but finally it turned out great.

Thanks Naufy brother, for the Grandlink treat. It was so sweet of you to treat us all twelve.

And thanks to yesterday's chaos, im GROUNDED. It was all because we took the last bus home.

Whatever it is, lets have an outing again one day together, better this time round i hope.

You guys rockzx!

.♥♥♥.

*Mom, Dad ; Im sorry. I know that i've made alot of mistakes towards you both.

Whereas you both have been trying to stand with my attitude. InsyaAllah, im trying to change.

I AM SORRY. :'(

Birthday Girl, Ianabby.

2010-08-14T21:30:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday, Ianabby!

You know i love you, my small bitch.

.♥♥♥.

14August marks the day of every year you're growing.

You're going bigger, babygirl. Be a good girl and may Allah bless your life.

Don't be naughty and listen to Mama okay? Thanks for all the smiles you made for me, dearest.

I love you alot, my mentel lil bitch.

.♥♥♥.

Met up with lovely cousins yesterday to break fast together.

Ate at Hajjah Maimunah and off to window-shopping at Bazaar later.

Eventhough it was short, im happy that at least it was all worthwhile the time.

Since we rarely gather like before, lets plan an outing soon again and i hope it'll be better.

I miss us, the old us. I love you all, dearest cousins. :'(

{♥♥♥♥}

I miss Anabby, Rahbby & Tirabby.

I miss the old us.

:'(

Kelepeh Day.

2010-08-11T20:54:00.002+08:00

National Day at Marina Barrage.

Lazy to elaborate, so understand me people.

Just now was Math paper 2 & Chemistry's paper. *crossfingers*

No hope for History tomorrow and maybe aiming well for f&n on Friday.

.♥.

My Kelepeh-Bitch ♥.

Through anything, lets try to stand strong together alright?

Lets be there for each other and understand each other better inside out.

Eventhough i am not your bestfriend, lets be good, great, awesome close friends.

No matter what, i love you dear friend. And i'll always be your listening ear here alright?

.♥♥♥.

As days passed.

2010-08-09T12:58:00.002+08:00

This was on 6August, just a mini-surprise celebration for Ibu.

I'd hope you like the cake and the presents, Ibu.

Stay smiling and strong always okay?

And i'll always love you.

.♥♥♥♥♥.

These were overdue photos on the day of getting Ibu a present.

And as for these, it was yesterday, the 8th of August that marks Kak Nor's big day.

May you both last till eternity and let only death separates the love of your life.

Selamat Pengantin Baru.

Not will be blogging much.

Will follow my mood, and also due to busy of exams.

Wait for my next update soon, takecare!

Lovelites♥

2010-08-01T23:08:00.001+08:00

Nothing much to update.

Yeaa, bloggy's getting dead, but it'll revive soon i hope.

Here are some of the overdue photos of some outings.

24 July '10 Outing ;

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Kendarat with Qinahbby on the 25th.

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Lastly, an impromptu last minute meet-up with Natbby and Iffahbby yesterday.

So much fun eventhough it was just the three of us. You both are just the awesomest!

Meet up again soon bbygirls, i love you both.

.♥♥.

.I.

.LOVE.

.YOU BOTH.

{♥♥♥}

As always.

2010-07-28T17:08:00.000+08:00

Holding on strong.

Babygirls, sorry for the long time to upload the photos.

Real soon okay as im feeling very tired and busy sometime now.

I love you girls!

♥♥♥

I am.

2010-07-26T19:53:00.000+08:00

I will always continue to pretend.

Interesting, Watch!

2010-07-22T21:22:00.000+08:00

It's just so funny.

Watch and Laugh, it's a must.

Then tag me your opinion about this freak.

Goodnight.

♥

Too late to turn back.

2010-07-20T22:16:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, words are better off untold.

For the best of others, that only lies between you and Him.

Meeting Hafiy♥

2010-07-19T17:54:00.000+08:00

These was all supposed to be the overdue pictures when meeting up Hafiy.

It was on the Saturday, which was all an impromptu plan. Nevertheless, we had fun.

We hope you do too, Hafiy. It's a pleasure that we got to meet you after so long. Meet again soon?

First, BK-ed as Fahbby and Lailabby wanted to grab something. Then off to Metro to try out dresses there.

.♥♥♥.

I love my bbygirls, and miss you Hafiy brother.

Lend me your Taptap Game again soon.

I love it!

♥

Pictures below are overdue photos due to the computer's corruption.

Fahbby, i update already tawu! Till here, takecare. (:

Hello.

2010-07-16T19:31:00.001+08:00

Im bored and im pissed.

And im so entertaining this laggy computer -,-''

Fahbby, thanks for the help just now. I love you, *RAWR*!

I want to upload photos, but really can't stand with this computer's condition now.

Sighs, im finding a way out. Help, anyone? Moving on to tumblr? :'(

Reviving again.

2010-07-15T20:29:00.001+08:00

Here are the overdue photos taken before my computer went dead.

With Nurulbby, to Hougang Mall.

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At school, with bbygirls ; taken before F&N class.

.♥.

This was when Lailabby accompanied me to Bugis to get my things.

Thanks Lailabby, and sorry Qinahbby.

Love korang *hugs*

.♥♥.

Sorry for the inactive bloggy. All thanks to the computer's corruption. Have to bare with it -,-''

And fuck this computer still, cause it's lagging. I hate this so much that everything has to go slow.

Even photoscape's gone, poof! Sighs. Fahbby, help me download again please? I hate picnik, hate hate.

That's all for the post today as i've got assignments to attend to. New friends, me love them. Haters, fuck off.

Thanks. ♥

Dead.

2010-07-05T22:12:00.000+08:00

My bloggy's gonna be dead for sometime now.

Will do a proper update soon once everything's back to normal.

Miss me, chalo! {♥.♥.♥}

Tired.

2010-06-28T17:22:00.001+08:00

Am i always too wrong?

Is this like gonna be the end soon?

I love GIRLFRIENDS alot, equally, never differentiating any sides.

But sometimes, people just don't know how you really feel inside without asking.

Happy Sixteenth, Akmal.

2010-06-23T21:17:00.000+08:00

Overdue pictures, just for fun.

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First and foremost,

Akmal Syazwan bin Bapaknye. ♥

Happy happy sixteenth birthday to you. For all the wishes i've wished you at midnight, it's gonna be the same here. May Allah bless your life and give you happiness that you could ever ask on this day. Keep on studying smart and may success leads your upcoming life next. For all the times you've been there for me, i thank you for the listening ears that are willing to hear me out when no one seemed to be bothered and also for the advices you've poured me with. You've been a great brother yet an awesome best friend that never fails to make me laugh. And lastly, last long with Alin no matter how deep a conflict between you both could get on to. I want to see the happiness in you when being with Alin since she's the only girl that could mend every broken pieces of yours. Stay strong and keep on smiling like how you always seemed to hide those sadness and confusions within you because im sure that you can be much stronger than what you already are now. Be the boy that makes your family proud of you. Eventhough yesterday's planning seemed to be kind of cocked up, but i'd hope you did still have some fun. We just want to see you happy and smiling. Overall, it was nothing much, all just for you brother. Happy birthday again, best friend.

Akmal's mini-celebration from us.

Guys, i wanna thank you all so much for making it happen still despite the weather.

And to those who can't attend yet give out, thank you so much! Even Akmal was glad.

Thank you for all the contributions and commitment you all have played a part in for all these.

Lastly to my awesomest girls, we had great times together aren't we? We should all do that again.

I love you all, XOXO.

{♥♥♥♥♥♥}

Weekend.

2010-06-21T11:07:00.000+08:00

Saturday, 19 June ; Jurong Swimming Pool with family.

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Sunday, 20 June ; Wedding Invitation at Bedok.

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Ianabby ;

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Was supposed to meet Amirul at Compasspoint at evening to collect the outing money, but cancelled.

Chilled under void deck with the accompany of chocolate oreo bubble tea, Fiqah & Ianabby.

.♥♥.

B.O.R.E.D.O.M

{♥♥♥}

That's all for the weekend. Gonna be preety busy from now.

I miss my girls & beloved cousins!

Toodles. (:

Random.

2010-06-18T20:45:00.001+08:00

Hello people.

Just alil update here cause Fahbby told me so.

Alright, nothing to update much. Tomorrow going swimming.

And can't wait for Tuesday too. Hoping to have some fun before school reopens.

Currently chatting with Lailabby, Fahbby and Wan Cine. As for Lailabby, cheer up okay?

Don't think too much and hack care about that damn arsehole. He'll get karma soon if he dares so.

Alright, that's all for now. Im so loving my peoples! Yeeeeeeeehaaaaaaaaa, this is for Fahbby. Chao ~

.♥.

Happy Sixteenth, Iffah.

2010-06-16T00:31:00.004+08:00

Iffah Basirah bte Bapaknye. ♥

Happy birthday to you. Im sorry i didn't get to wish you at midnight sharp as i was preety busy accompanied by chats here and there. So therefore, i am here again to wish you a happy happy birthday. May happiness and success comes rolling your way. Semoga dipanjangkan umur dan dimurahkan rezeki. Despite the biggest conflict we once had, i still love you. And i want you to know that, i am still hoping the very best for our friendship. I'll always be here if you need a shoulder to cry on. Aside from that, stay strong in all ups and downs you're overcoming now. I am sure these obstacles will make you a stronger person. Have fun today, and again, just so you know that i cherish you much. I miss you, Xoxo.

Happy Sixteenth, Khaliesah.

2010-06-15T14:04:00.002+08:00

Nur Khaliesah bte Bapaknye. ♥

Happy Sixteenth Birthday, dear. I hope i was the first person to wish you when it strikes midnight. May all your wishes come true and may success and happiness leads your way. Semoga dipanjangkan umur dan dimurahkan rezeki. May you be surrounded with all your loved ones that could provide you love, care and concern that you need. Study smart and stay gorgeous. And not forgetting, last long long with Maman alright? May he be the prince to your heart everafter. Sorry that i had no presents, just a small gift and a wish. Apart from our friendship that's straining apart now, i'd still hope that this friendship will live for long that it could possibly be. I love you, despite what had happened. No matter what, you're still one of my awesomest friends. I wanna thank you for those times you were there for me and being my listening ears. And for every treats and all, i thank you again. I was grateful much towards you. Lastly, take good care of your health and never fail to put on a smile to your face no matter what happens. If you need a friend, i would gladly be there for you. Happy Birthday, girlfriend. I hope that today will be the happening day of your life. Xoxo.

Overcoming.

2010-06-13T23:12:00.002+08:00

Too disappointed to tell.

Forgive and forget?

Fxck. :'(

Thanks alot, bbyg.

2010-06-08T13:43:00.003+08:00

Lailabby ♥

First of all, i wanna thanks bbyg for willing to update for me again as what she've mentioned, i was too distracted to blog. So as to keep this blog alive and rather not boring, i asked for her favor. Despite that, thanks for yesterday. Thanks for willing to hear me out in the middle of the night. I guess i was too depressed or perhaps in a dilemma still. Lailabby, i didn't expect you to post all those for me. I was touched yet at ease. Thank you so much dear. And i will try my best to overcome everything okay? I love you so much, girlfriend.

Not to my expectation yesterday, i saw ~~someone~~. And when the moment i saw that particular person, my eyes were almost filled with tears. Seeing you with your friends, i was just imagining that i could go up to you and say "Hi, it's been so long since we last met and catch up with each other's lives. How are you?" How i'd wished the moment i saw you, we could start a conversation. But no, it's all for the best that i pulled Mom along and walked faster ahead and not turning back. Indeed, i very well wanted to have another glance at you but no. I've gotta fight for the best and move on. I don't even know whether you noticed me or even care to bother. Since that moment, i started tearing and kept rewinding everything all over back again. No, Sha. You can't be like this all the time. You have to be stronger than what you already are. And im sure i can, insyaAllah. Sometimes, i don't even know whether whatever im doing is either right or wrong. The feeling is just so stroing and i'd really hope that it'll all go away soon. Real soon so as to not let me tear day and night again and again. I had enough of suffering and bearing with all of these feelings. God, please help me. I plead. :'(

Awal Ashaari ♥

Zainabby, you know what?! I had a dream yesterday that when we were having our family day out, we met Awal! We were so eager that we started taking pictures with him. Zomg! It was so fun yet unbelievable. Despite that, we got the opportunity to have great conversations and jokes with him. Oh my gosh, it was so fun, i swear! Just to share, yes, that was my unbelievable dream of all. Even if that was only a dream, i am just so eager and excited myself. Haha! Well, who knows it might come true one day. *cross fingers* Damn, i admire this hotstuff. <333

Lala, Like A G A I N :D

2010-06-08T00:20:00.002+08:00

A S S A L A M U A L A I K U M :D

Refraining for Sha's blog to be dusty, Lala Heroine is here to save her blog. *flips hair* Aiseeeeey.

H E E. Joking. So, Sha's not in an awesome mood today, like really not in the mood lah, ass. So its like im her favour right now to update her blog okaay people ? And basically, you know how nonsensical i am kan ? So bare with it kay ? What im doing right now is chatting with Dear , he's away for the moment to attend some duties with Mama. Here i am typing for my Deary Girlfriend. Sha was not feeling awesome, so people, go her house now and make her feel better kay ? Korang buat lah apape till she's happy, kenal ke tk kenal, add me at msn to ask for her address kay ? lala_this-is-just-for-laughs@83668399.com.sk. So people, P L E A S E add me now kay ? If korang tk buat Sha happy, siap korang, aku kejar mcm mak ayam biol. H E E. Eh, ive got nothing much to type here uh, so to keep it 'so like summary style', craps out. Kay im so blank. Lets story. There's this girl, (tkya tau name kay) im like so ~~fucked~~ up with her attitude. So NO ORIGINALITY. Ayai, is it that difficult to creat your own style babe ? If so, please, do you mind, read some fashion magazine or any photographic information ? Apodaah. And so, im just B O R E D. :D

Kay im outta here. Off to mines ! http://lalamakesitreal.blogspot.com ♥

♥ Ayyshah Deary ♥

Girlfriend, firstly, i want you to relax and free your mind kay. Like serious shit, when i say serious + shit, i mean it taw. So do it now eh babe. Basically, i know how you're feeling right now, as ive experienced that too. You know kan ? What i did was, i insert my head in the toilet bowl and flush it down several times. H A H A ! That was funny, (you better laugh eh, fake pon tkpe). Kay mepek. *slaps my face* Okay, lala serious. First step, think of the bad times you had with that person, those bad stuff that person did till made you tears all over, be angry with that person, YES, be angry. Dont ever be sad, STOP rewinding the sweet moments, those good times you had, those memories, burn those. Dont ever cry and let those stubborn eyes of yours let a tear out, if they are, slap them in front of your mirror and laugh. Kay, that was stupid, but please, try it out. It'll make you feel better though its stupid or lame can i say. If you dont have the mood to attend those stuff, force yourself babe, please. You cant let your soul control you, before they control you, you control them. Just stop wasting those tears for an ungrateful and heartless person. What for feel sad, what for cry ? Its stupid, yes it is babe. Its just not worth it. If you cry till your eyes pops out, it still wont rewind the time kan ? So please, get rid of those and be calm kaay ? Iloveyou Gf. I just hope you'll feel better when you read this and this is useful.

Much loves,

Lala, your nonsense.

{♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥}

Stresstresstress.

2010-06-05T22:42:00.003+08:00

First and foremost, thanks alot Lailabby for willing to update for me.

Andand, the songs too! ^^.

Overdue picture with Lil' bitch of mine.

Isn't Lysha just so cute? Right lala?

♥♥♥.

I'd thought i just wanna brush up a short while of what has happened for today.

Arab Street with Mom and Aunt to find their scarfs for Kak Nor's wedding.

Afterwhich, went Courts awhile and had our dinner at Jalan Kayu.

I had Murtabak~ Yumyum! Really full and im off to watch tv.

Ignore stupid, irrits faces of mine, due to boredom. :D

Good night. Love you, Lailabby!

.♥.

Lala's ♥

2010-06-05T16:35:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Lala here :D

So lately, si Sha ni busy with her stuff. As a result, here i am updating for her. I myself am busy with holiday assignments and f&n courseworks. In a while just now, I have just updated and change her blog songs for her like how she wants it. Aiyoo. Sha and I tired liao with coursework. Im attending my decision making now. L E C E H. Yesterday's intensive was worth it, luckily we came, Qinah Syiqin and Nurul was absent yesterday. Why i say worth it ? We complete our researches and evaluation yesterday. Phew. Due to the lack of time, Sha was enable to complete her research in time and therefore i accompanied her till nearly 4pm while intensive ends at 3pm. I completed my research in time and already handed in. Well.. *flips hair*. hee. Joking. Ohya, i wanna tell ya guys smtg. The day before yesterday, during our intensive lesson, Akmal farted twice. Loud enough till Sha and i heard it. L O L. Then, lesson end and Sha went over to my house to complete her research while i complete my evaluation. Ibu ordered Pizza babe. As soon as the delivery came, i rushed to get it as we were hungry like cave-womans, only me indeed, Sha chillax je.
H A H A. Okay okay, i guess im done crapping Sha's blog. Off to mine's ! With love ♥

~ T O O D L E S ~

Sleeq.

2010-06-02T23:05:00.020+08:00

They are so cuteeee! ^^

I miss this Minah and Mat of mine badly now. Slept over at their crib for the past few days and had lotsa fun. Ain't gonna do a proper update yet, but soon will. Gonna be hell busy with tons of holiday assignments to be done. Andand ohh, there's school tomorrow from 8.30am to 3pm. Shagged. For f&n coursework. Aww, i hate courseworks. Going to bed now since there's school tomorrow, or else i'll overslept again and again. And yes, SLEEQ is my new obsession now. Hehe, good night.

Happy Birthday, Malik.

2010-05-30T01:46:00.001+08:00

Despite anything, i still love this ass.

Usop dearest, ♥♥.

Happy Birthday, Malik.

Eventhough it was a small celebration just now, i'd hope you had fun.

May Allah bless you with happiness & success in life and may you be encircled among your loved ones.

So, celebrated Malik's birthday just now and attended two open houses, which is Aunt's and Uncle's together.

And Zainabby sleeping over at my crib for today, yay! Will soon sleep over at yours next week. That's all for today.

Im so lovin' my awesomest pills ; Usop dearest & Zainabby

.♥♥♥.

Adored.

2010-05-26T22:36:00.001+08:00

Zainabby ♥ ;

Met her, Usop and Malik just now.

Had fun and craps as usual. Great times spent together.

Meeting them again this Saturday and off to town maybe, awaiting for it!

Lots to think about but im just gonna leave it just like that for a moment. I need a breather.

I love this minah-cousin of mine, people! *Minah eh Ina? :P

GOODNIGHT.

Qinahbby.

2010-05-24T23:16:00.000+08:00

The day was spent with Qinahbby.

Accompanied her to T1 to look for stuffs.

And by the way, Kaseh looked so gorgeous.

Jyeaah, undeniable. Lol. Good night now.

♥

Belated.

2010-05-23T12:37:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, we went to a very typical visiting place in Singapore.

Which is.. the Singapore Zoological Garden!

Random though, but it was all a carnival of free tickets Aunt got.

Let just the pictures do the talking alright?

.♥.

Afterwhich, went to meet Ziebby at her birthday pit at Pasir Ris park with Lailabby at evening. The pit was all filled with people we don't know. So yeah, it was preety awkward. Thank goodness there was Asri. Ate and all. Then headed home. Sorry we were acting like fucktards yesterday when we even know that it was your day. Im really sorry, darling. I felt really bad. Thanks for the invitation that lastly brought me to finally meet you after for so long. And get well soon, gorgeous. :(

.♥.

Happy Belated Birthday Nur Azifah Bte Jamal.

Despite that, you'd still have my wishes and prayers with you.

May happiness and success be with you through whatever or anything.

Don't lose those smiles and also, may you last long with boyfriend that loves you.

We really should hang out together soon and spend ample time together. I miss you alot.

.♥.

I love you.

{♥♥♥}

Let me be alone.

2010-05-19T20:19:00.002+08:00

The day was shagged and pathetic. Exams are finally over and next, gonna shiver for the upcoming results. After one, why must be another? I never knew that you would suddenly said all those. Yes, till the very moment now i have not texted nor update you with anything since you last texted me. Because i felt that i need some space to be alone and think. I don't even know whether i am mad or angry with you. I just felt alil upset to hear such news when you suddenly reached me. I know that things are getting apart and our relationship are straining aside. I understand how bad it feels like. But i can't help it either. Time doesn't stop for anyone, my dear. Everyone would wish to have time at their fingertips but sadly we couldn't. I know you're upset, paranoid and confused with all that's happening within your lives. I can do nothing but to only be there for you and pour you advices. It's upsetting yet very painful to know the truth that your trust in me actually started to fade. I don't blame you for it. Everyone has their own perspective view and opinions to voice out. I then realized that i have not been a better friend for you. Yes, everything just seemed to get out of hands. We're less communicating, seeing each other and what more understanding each other right? Im sorry if this friendship were to be an additional problem for you. I guessed what you mentioned were true. Friendship is hard to handle, huh? I was never expecting you to say all those. Nevertheless, it's your right to voice out what you feel of this friendship. I very well admit that i have not been taking good care of our friendship? Have i been understanding you at your best sincewhile? Have i been the greatest friend or perhaps a sister to you sincewhile? You said yes. But no, i wasn't. Im sorry if my absence in your life now adds up to the miseries you're facing. Dearest, seeing me fine, laughing and smiling doesn't always conclude that im a perfect person without any ups and downs. That doesn't mean im happy with my life when sometimes that i had to pretend to lead a better life. How much i need you, how much i need all the close ones i used to turn to is a very deep emotion that i am not willing to pour. I wouldn't want to trouble anyone else anymore to hearing my problems and my pretense. I am trying well to learn to stand on my own and not be too depending on others. I have also got my miseries that i have been keeping all alone. I know i have not been sharing with you and not coming to you even when i know i need you at my worst. Its because i want to learn to be independent. And that doesn't mean that i don't need you, i don't cherish you. I very well do. You'e not selfish to have said all that. You're just being pushed to deep emotions that paranoids you harder each day. You're going through a hard time now. Focus well on your family and not prioritise our friendship yet alright? Your family needs you and you need them. I want you to know that i still love this friendship that we've built for seven fucking years. I don't wanna lose it just like that. I don't wanna lose you either. But after of all you've confessed, i guess i need time to be alone now. All i have got to say is that i know im not being a good friend, to you, to Lailabby and girlfriends. Or just anyone else. Im sorry everyone. I think friendship has been playing a big part in my life that got me hanging now and then. InsyaAllah, i will find a solution for our friendship in getting better. I wanna say sorry for everything, for all these times that i've been hurting you perhaps or so. And thank you for everything and every sacrifications you've made for me during this seven years being together. I love you, best friend, sister. And i miss you too, that's if you believe it. I need time to be alone now. So i guess, you shouldn't be stressing up too much about us alright? Take good care of yourself if i couldn't yet at my best.

Nowhere seen any moment now.

2010-05-16T00:40:00.002+08:00

Nothing much today, sighhhhhhhhs.

At afternoon, celebrated a Mother's Day surprise for Granny though

it's already late. It was all Aunts' and Mom's idea. Just a mini celebration and pictures.

.♥.

Afterwhich, both Lailabby and i planned to head to VivoCity since we're dead off.

Got ourselves new shades and as usual, pictorials time!

Vivo City>Rivervale Mall>Home sweet home

.♥.

Andand, who's more cuter here?

.♥.

Iana & Lysha ;

I love this two cutest bitches!

Hee.

Trying.

2010-05-12T12:42:00.003+08:00

It's 12.12pm now. I've eaten and currently downloading songs. Yes people, i've not been doing a proper update due to exams. Will be working on it soon once MYE ends. Well, for today was Math paper 1 and no, though i thought i've tried my best, im still not satisfied. Sighs. I sucks in Math, damn. But not forgetting, thank you dearest Zaina cousin for the helping hand for Math yesterday. And it's a must for us both to karaoke like crazy again! If Usop were to be there with us yesterday, for sure it'll be double the laughter and fun. :( Miss him siul. As for later, im going to have a study hour with Lailabby at her crib. Aduii, Naufal's not coming even. Miss that Abg Cine too. It has been sincewhile since we last met though. Haha. Just being rather random for now. Lastly to Qinahbby, sorry that i couldn't accompany you to Somerset for the job interview, honey. I really can't. I'll pray the best for you alright? Xoxo, take care.

Undeniable, im just missing alot of people now.

I don't know why but it's just that mingling feeling. :'(

~~Mardino~~
~~Rosli~~
~~Usop~~
~~Afi~~
~~Asyraf~~
~~Naufal~~
~~Khairil~~
~~Didi~~
~~Iffah~~
~~Zie~~
~~Rah~~
~~Fazira~~
~~Erra~~
~~Nat~~
~~My used-to-be happy family~~
~~My late grandmother's mother~~
~~My only bunch of awesome girls~~

Delayed.

2010-05-10T23:17:00.005+08:00

First and foremost, i would still like to wish my beloved mother a

Happy Belated Mother's Day. Sorry for the late wish, Ibu.

Despite that, i thank you for every single thing, Ibu.

May Allah bless you with happiness & health.

I feel much greatful to have you.

I love you, Ibu!

{♥♥♥♥♥♥}

Leftover pictorials on Saturday.

Out with Fiqah to get Granny something.

And she love it!

♥

Damn, ignore my boncet tummy.

Grrrr. Kay laa, nak tidur now.

Good luck for tmrw!

Nights.

Not forgetting,

Happy 22nd monthsary to akm{A}lin today.

May you both last long and stay happy despite all shits.

Last but not least, Happy Birthday to Ex-bestfriend, Afi.

10 May is your day, so i'd hope you enjoyed it well.

Though you've changed, i do still miss you buddy.

May Allah bless you with happiness and health.

Takecare, Ex-bestfriend.

I love you.

2010-05-08T14:35:00.004+08:00

Hello earthlings.

So yesterday, had a small group study with Lailabby.

Accompanied her to pay off her bill first then to Burger King then to Toast Box.

Lailabby, thanks alot for the treats and the awesome day too!

.♥.

Step birthday kite kejap laa kan. ♥

Lailabby's favourite. ♥

Ours. ♥

Thanks alot for the day yesterday sayang.

I hope you did had fun. Despite that, sorry that i had to be home earlier due to curfews.

I love you!

Punggol Beach.

2010-05-07T14:10:00.001+08:00

Some pictorials of yesterday's.

Spent the evening with Lailabby.

Punggol Beach>Mall>Home sweet home.

♥

Wait for my next update then.

Kay bye people.

Hopes.

2010-05-05T14:17:00.000+08:00

♥

Done with Malay and English papers.

Alot more to go. :(

Yesterday, went to Cotton On with Lailabby. She bought a skirt and i bought a long sleeve puffy-kind-of-top. After that, was busy helping aunt and uncle with their new house. At night, thought of meeting Lailabby and husband. But turned out that i didn't bring Ezlink to meet them at Punggol -________-'' Sorry guys. Soon alright? Andand, i frigging wanna own Cotton On can? Haiyaaaaaak. K bye. (:

Well wishes for you.

2010-05-03T12:56:00.000+08:00

I was shocked when i got the news that you were in the operation room already.

My prayers are with you, so are your other friends. Im sure you'll make through success.

Get well soon and have enough rest okay?

Ismahadi, you're a great friend.

♥

Pesanan buat kekasih.

2010-05-01T17:54:00.002+08:00

Sewaktu kau melangkah
Meninggalkan diriku
Sebaknya rasa di dalam dadaku
Menahan titis air mata

Ingin aku berpesan
Kepadamu kekasih
Sekiranya engkau merinduiku
Hubungilah aku di sini

Jika ada kesilapanku
Maafkanlah diriku oh sayang
Dan izinkan aku bertanya
Mengapa kau berubah hati

Kiranya kau ada penggantiku
Tetapi hidupmu tak bahagia
Relaku memaafkanmu
Dan menerimamu sayang

Walaupun hatiku kau lukai
Namunku masih menyayangi
Kerana sehingga waktu ini
Cintaku masih untukmu

Oh sayang di mana kau berada
Janganlah kau lupakan aku
Ingatlah aku walau sesaat
Seorang insan yang terluka

I really miss someone so much.

My heart's just so sore.

:'(

Kept within.

2010-04-27T17:53:00.002+08:00

I miss each and everyone of you badly now. :'(

♥

Usop dear cousin, i miss you. When are we going to meet again?

When's the nearest time we're going to karaoke and crack hell jokes again?

And for the first time im saying, i love you cousin.

We all misses you.

♥

Rahbby, i really wish that we could go out one day.

And i really hope ties between our family could grow stronger.

I love you.

♥

Lailasyg, i miss you eversince this cold ties began.

I am wishing hard things could go back as per normal like before.

Though im not your best friend, i will try hard to hold this friendship stronger and not breaking it.

I love you.

♥

I love this perfect bitches.

Mess with us?

{♥♥♥♥♥♥}

Drifted again?

2010-04-26T19:39:00.001+08:00

Dear Lailabby,

I don't know if you're reading this or not. But if you do, i would gladly tell you how i feel deep down. This few days, you went weird. You became the old you, the lonely you. Why? When i asked you why, you said there's no point in telling. I was offended yet i just went silent. I don't wanna ask much since you've given me an impression that you don't wanna be bothered. Is it because of anyone of us in our clique that have offended you some way or so? Or was it me for being an irritant in some way? We were in good terms indeed very compact. Our clique went soothe and back happy again. But what happened now? Is it going to break apart again into two different cliques? You mentioned about best friends in your blog. And yes, i know i am not the best friend you're looking for. I just don't suit to be one of them. Eventhough we've been friends for almost five years now, i admit that i'd think i have not known you better enough. I thought i did but you seemed to prove me wrong. We were in the same situations in almost every way. You understand how i feel and i do too for yours. Though, i know that my understanding of you is not good enough for a best friend to understand a best friend right? Nevertheless, i felt thankful. Thankful that at least you has got an awesome good friend or perhaps best friend, Sofia, to accompany you through all. I'll pray for your friendship to last, i will. As what i've told you before, i just hate seeing you tear and when you choose to be alone. If you've got problems, do share. We will always be there for you. I'll always lend you my listening ear. But im sorry if a listening ear is all i could lend out. I know that ain't enough for you. Seeing you being like this questions all of us one by one. Though we keep quiet, we let you be so, it doesn't mean that we don't care. It doesn't mean that we like you being out of the clique. We obviously don't. Have you ever asked yourself that? Cause from what i know what you would be thinking is that we don't even give a damn about you, which is totally wrong. Browsing through our photos together and those memories spent just brought me to tears. I seriously don't know why you're being like this. I really don't know why you're trying to avoid us now. What made you like this questioned us so much. We just want you to know that we're always here for you. We will always be at our best for one another. I thank you darling, for everything that you've done for me. Everything. Thank you alot, Zulaiha. For those times i've been sucha shitty friend or so, im sorry. Im sorry if i wasn't the best for you. Deep down, i still love you as a sister. Too bad then, i was not the best friend you were looking for. It's your life and it's your choice in choosing your circle of friends. Our friendship will always be within my prayers. Even if these made me to tears, i just want you to know that i care much for you.

♥

You made me.

2010-04-25T15:29:00.000+08:00

Im really in no mood for any further updates on life.

So yupps, let the pictures do the talking alright?

Yesterday's.

♥.

Shaqinah.

2010-04-23T18:40:00.000+08:00

{♥♥♥}

I Love You, Bitch!

And psssst, last long okay bby?

Qinayyshah ;

A simple smile, a scream inside.

2010-04-22T21:59:00.001+08:00

There’s so much no one knows,
So much that no one sees,
About the way I feel inside, my thoughts and all my needs.

Maybe it’s the fact that they don’t look,
Or the fact that I don’t show,
Either way, there are things inside that no one seems to know.

I want to show the world,
I want everyone to see,
All the thoughts and ideas that flow inside of me.

Maybe you haven’t noticed,
Or maybe you didn’t dare,
To find out who I am, to show me that you care.

I’m screaming on the inside,
A smile is what you see,
But I’m not content with the person I seem to be.

There’s a different person on the inside,
That I can’t seem to show,
But maybe if you took the time, that person you could know.

</3

Lovelites.

2010-04-19T18:21:00.000+08:00

Yesterday's when we did our homework. (:

My babygirls. ♥

Favourites.

2010-04-18T10:05:00.000+08:00

This was the overdue pictures on last Wednesday.

Out to Geylang with mom and aunt to get their outfits yesterday.

Before:

After:

Before:

After:

This malu-malu girl. =.='

Minahrep laa siul. ^^

So, that's all folks!

♥♥

Perfect one.

2010-04-17T13:22:00.002+08:00

I met my Lailabby at evening yesterday. Chilled for sometime and then played badminton.

Since after since for a long time we were engaged in badminton, it was absolute fun!

Qinahbby missed it as she had attachment to attend to. Thanks for the time, bby.

I love you, Siti Zulaiha.

Xoxo.

♥

I don't know how much longer could i resist this feeling. This heartbreaking dilemma. How could i just get over you and start a brand new? Why does your face keeps haunting me in my dream? I miss you for who you used to be. Im just out of words. I feel so aimless within the surrounding now. Should i blame you? Or myself instead? God, enlighten this feeling please. Why is it getting stronger when im the more im trying to forget you? I used to always see you as the perfect one. Always will? Sighs :'(

I finally found my special someone

I think about him all the time

He’s perfect, couldn’t come any better

Truly an angel in my mind

When we are together

Time runs by so fast

I just wish I had the power

The power to make our time together last

There is just something about him

I don’t know what it is

I think we both know sparks will fly

When we get our first kiss

He finds the right ways to make me laugh

Just looking into his eyes makes me smile

I think about him non-stop

The memories we share I’ll hold onto for a long while

I care about him more than anything

I just hope he knows

As we keep spending time together

My love and feelings for him will do nothing but grow

Flashbacks.

2010-04-12T19:37:00.001+08:00

This was yesterday's overdued photos. Sweet tak aku dgn Lailabby? Aww. Haha, okay fake. So basically, slacked and attend to assignments at RC near Rivervale Mall. Both Lailabby and i chilled and waited for Naufal, Iqin and Eman. But in the end, they both turned up except for Eman. Hrmpf. After all, Naufal and Lailabby came over to my crib as mom invited them over for dinner, or should i say supper? Haha. We're having excitements of playing badminton after so long but it didn't turned out so as Naufal was sick. Get well soon and have enough rest, pal. Sighs, and yes again, we couldn't get to play badminton as planned again today as it was raining. Hmms. I wanna now attend to some of my coursework and then off to get Cupwalker! Toodles.

♥

Bugis.

2010-04-10T21:34:00.003+08:00

Hey yo people. Today was just rotting at home and aunts coming over to my house for a family feast kind of thing. At around 5pm, decided to ask Fiqah cousin to accompany me to Bugis for awhile just to get my fake eyelashes. I know it's pathetic much-.-' but it's better rather than being at home the whole day right? Lol. Till then, off to library at Compasspoint and then Lailabby texted to join them somewhere. I would like to but i can't. Aunt last minute told me that we're going Changi. Haiyak. Hopefully tomorrow can okay? Im sorry, love. And yes, i missed the fun the rest shared just now in the morning. They went swimming! And im sure they had lots of fun. Sorry i couldn't tag. I can't, plus i woke up late. There's always a next time, bbygirls. And ohh! Theres this freaking indian freak guy that was like very irrits for us sia. Like always, the MRT will for sure be packed at City Hall. We're all squeezed like chicks or what?! Then came this indian freak, standing behind me, fucking pevertic to like "gesek" forward towards me and then Fiqah. Fucker sial that arse. Hahah, bitch. So people, avoid from standing near indian asshole guys. They're just too DANGEROUS, hahaha. Signing off now, im tired. Adios.

♥

Decisions.

2010-04-09T19:25:00.003+08:00

Am i gonna live a new chapter starting from today? I really hope so. Im gonna be happy from today onwards since granny and cousins are moving into my house today for a period of a month. Eventhough it's short, im sure there'll be lots of fun and chaos going around living together, especially when there's Ianabby. Ohmy, there'll not be much privacy for me then. Gah. And ohh yes, i didn't attend school today. Was preety lazy much due to the stupid, boring Sports Carnival from 3-6pm. Wth. Alright, just a short update now. Takecare lovelies. Yesyes, i miss girlfriends!

♥♥♥

*muker gangster* : Nak pe?! Hahahah.

(Gangster adik sdare aku.^^)

So roughly, went to the teens alive class at 8pm. This time, fortunately with Irah cousin! Thanks for the accompany. Heh. Afterwhich, went to get redbull and chilled at the void deck. Chit chatted and all. Home sweet home now. Awaiting Ianabby's presence now. She's coming, yay! :D

None like you.

2010-04-07T23:30:00.004+08:00

Should i regret for getting myself with you or should i be thankful much for having to at least feel what your love seemed to be? Why am i having fears towards other guys? They're just ain't the same like you, never were. You seemed to be the shining crystal among all while they're simply bronze that symbolizes nothing. Your face was never once faded from my mind like how i simply could get over others. Despite all wrongs or intentionally heartaches, i don't know why my heart still yearns for you. Why do i have to still keep pretending whenever i had to face you? Im tired but i know i've got to move on with the game so as to not destroy your happiness now. Your happiness and your smiles will be my priority of all. Nevertheless, i kept wondering why the hell am i bothering a fuck about you still? I should've move on right? Why did you had to be the same as the rest? You made a choice in choosing me for a lifetime and promising there wouldn't be another. But why did you even think of breaking your promises when in the first place you could have never think of the possibilities you'll make about it? Im much disappointed with your decision till the very day today. Yes, you need your own space for everything, i understand that. Not denying, i don't know who to trust. The complications of the story made me more paranoid each day. When i've met one and then another, they just weren't like you. Not even abit. My dreams had to walk away while his replacements will never be the same. I am not contented, happy and comfortable. Something seemed to be amiss. Promises are meant to be broken huh? I hate you, yet i miss you. FxckFxckFxck. </3

See this gorgeous bitch? ♥

I met her just now since Qinahbby had something on.

Talked and crapped as the usual thang we'll always get hooked onto.

And syg, im so sorry if you felt upset of what he said. Don't give a damn about it alright?

Come to school tomorrow okay. Get well soon and have enough rest. Yknw i love you, bitch.

Only one.

2010-04-05T22:35:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, memories are better forgotten.

Sometimes they're not, but over time you seem to lose them.

But sometimes, eventhough memories are too hard to even bear,

you would still want to hold to the bad and good memories.Cause in the end,

you realize that there was a reason for all that misery, that it resulted in happiness.

This moment, im just missing someone, or maybe two, or perhaps so? Why do i feel so motionless when seeing this awkward atmosphere now? How am i supposed to face each and every family of ours? I just don't know why our ties are so loose now. What was my wrongs? How did we end up being separated like this now? It made me wanna tear when having to face this situation of our family presently. It all seemed wrong and awkward. Why? Those memories together just made me tearing of all the times we've spent as a whole, whole-heartedly. We are separated now, separated. I don't want it, we never want. Sighs. :'(

You, i guess im missing you too much huh? I was hoping still, very. As days passed by made my heart yearning for you back. But no, i was really wrong to even think of that. It was very undescribeable of how happy i felt when you approached me eventhough i don't know if it was really sincere from you. I didn't care much about it all, but the only fact was that you were the one that always managed to put a smile on me. It was very much awkward and uneasy for me when we 've got to communicate like that. I just couldn't, really can't. May you be happy. Im sorry to say, but i still miss you. Fxck, did i just mention that?!

</3

Girlfriends, i miss you bitches effing much. Im not hoping for our friendship to break any sooner. Let's hold on tightly together and enjoy the wonderful times whilst last. No, don't ever approach me in saying that "this is only for temporary". I love you girls vely much much. Meet up in school tomorrow, darlings.
♥

Yesterday's.

2010-04-03T14:30:00.000+08:00

Damn, im getting boncet. Kay bye. (:

Someone.

2010-04-03T02:08:00.000+08:00

Hello hello people.

So, there's this mysterious boy. We've known each other for quite sometime. Have been talking on the phone like crazy and when being ourselves, it just feels comfortable. Im aware that you've been wanting to meet up. But im practically not ready. Not ready after of all scars im left with from the cause of guys. Not that im trying to put you into the same situation as them, but they're just proving that guys will be guys. And that they'll all be the same. I just don't know how to put to words of how i am feeling right now. I hope you can be patient. Thus, you deserve someone better, i swear. Im just not the one for you. I kept going against everything that you said to prove you wrong. Even, you went deeper to reach out to me how much i meant to you. I don't know, im confused. Despite that, im waiting for the right time to give you opportunities? And for myself even. Sighs. We'll keep digging each other's deeper alright? You're nice. Goodnight.

♥

Girlfriends.

2010-04-02T12:32:00.002+08:00

The Perfect Six. ♥

Our new haircut now, Lailabby. ♥

Out to town with Qinahbby. {010410} ♥

Library.

2010-03-29T23:39:00.001+08:00

Today suck.

After school went to meet Qinah awhile.

Then she's off to work and im off to meet the two sisters.

Went to the library and chilled. Nothing much today yet boredom.

♥

When two are gone.

2010-03-29T00:25:00.003+08:00

Nothing hurts more then waiting

since I don’t even know what I’m waiting for anymore.

Happyhappyhappy Birthday to both my lil' brother, Iszuwan and my dearest cousin, Fazira. ♥

In wishing that you guys will have a blessful days ahead and succeed in life.

Don't be naughty okay, you both. Study hard alright?

Just a birthday post here for the both of you.

No matter what happens, i love you both very very much. <3

(Cute pe nenek aku.♥)

Roughly, that's all for today.

In the afternoon, met Iffah and chilled.

Then afterwhich, met Laila and Naufal plus friends.

Went home then off to grandma's crib to celebrate lil' brother's birthday.

Hurried fast to meet Laila and Naufal at Starbucks to catch up with homeworks.

But sorry that i was only awhile with you guys. Off to meet Mar and Asy at the nearest block.

Qinah came after she's done with her work. Talked, laughed, chilled and homework-ing for me.

Home sweet home now. Very very tired and exhausted. Yet, there's still school later. Fuck. Nights now.

♥

Siti Zulaiha.

2010-03-27T16:01:00.003+08:00

Siti Zulaiha ♥

Dearest, i understand that situations are getting harder for you to handle. I might not know or perhaps understand what you're going through. But the least, could you share? Stop dragging things and always avoid sharing with others, my dear. In life, you will always need another shoulder to rely on no matter how much you tryna just keep it to yourself. I know you've got Naufal, but we as your girlfriends? You and i, we've been friends, perhaps good friends since Primary six.Things went tossing around for us both but finally we got the hang of it now. If i've done any wrongs or anything about me that has given you a bad impression of myself, im sorry. When i asked you what's wrong, you said nothing. I wasn't born yesterday to get to know you, darling. 4years have past and what am i if i don't know you yet? I know you're hiding something even when you have told me a part of it. Just part of it, why? What's lacking in me, us, as friends? Yes, it's your decision of making wise choices in choosing who to tell and trust. Its just that im really concern about my girlfriends, All of you. Seeing you being like this really gave me worries for wondering what's within you that you don't tend to bother to tell us? Please sayang, stop having negative thinking that'll give you a very bad impact of everything. Im sorry if i have not been a good friend to you, an attentive listener to you, a shoulder to cry on and whatever a good friend should be providing you with. Honestly, it really saddens me when you mentioned all those yesterday. Yes, i tried to hide it cause i don't wanna worsen your condition any further. As a listening ear, im all yours. I've got no rights to say what's right or wrong for you. You'll choose the best alright? Im just hoping that you'll make the right decisions. Whatever happens, im always here for you. We are all here for you. Live life to the fullest while you still can and please avoid thinking negative things that'll just break your happiness apart. This post is for you, dear. I care, cherish and love you. I will always want the best for my babygirls. You're not at fault, but just give a thought about what i've said. Take good care of yourself alright? I love you.

Interview.

2010-03-27T00:55:00.003+08:00

(We like it the most ^^)

School sucks as per normal. After school, went for an interview at Clark Quay with mom and Laila, which i am lazy to elaborate. Done with the interview, went home and get my assignments and planned to do it at RC with Laila. When we got there, we were stonning instead. I was like so fucked up for not getting my answers right for Math assignment and Laila seemed so moody. Hell shit man. Blablabla, camwhored and slacked at RC till 11pm. Home sweet home now. Preety sleepy and feeling rather soggy. And fish! Ignore my fucking pimple(!) Bad bad bad. *Soggy uhh, Fah! Haha.

Currently texting someone.

Sweet dreams earthlings.

Hee, good night now.

♥